A Trip to Bellmawr

So, if I want my laptop, I have to go pick it up in Bellmawr, right by the Bonner's house. As silly as it may be, I miss Mrs. Bonner and Mr. Bonner. I miss that strange lifestyle I had just a year ago. I miss Bruce, I miss the kitties, I miss how people would just walk in. I miss the mattress on the floor, I miss it. :sigh:

So should I just try and get it tomorrow? Or should I try and pick it up today? Maybe Laura will go with me...

What else is new?

So apparently, my nick name at school is cuntface. No one from the I-house liked me last year. xD No surprise, mutherfawkingslackers. Haha, just 'cos I'm an achiever and they're party people I suppose. So yeah, I'm quite amused. At least I'm not a cuntface that has syphalis all over it like Frump-a-lumps. And I don't complain about how sick I am and that's why I don't go to school for 4 weeks at a time. My god. And they only hate me 'cos they're grades were all C's. They deserved it and I'd do it again too. Who needs malicious bastards who all backstab each other anyway.

And who needs friends who don't stand up for you when those bastards are talking smack about you?

:sigh: In actuallity, I'm kind of distressed over the whole thing. But not really. I've conquered the demon ice queen and we've become warm and cozy, much like I conquered the Della-Demon last year. If I go on like this and keep conquering 1 demon at a time per year and keep aquiring more anti-caite fans by 7 every year/semester, I'm gonna have a shitton of people hating me. xD Oh boy, another fanfuckingtastic year at the Academy.

When you're singing the blues...

... there's nothing like best friend advice and story sharing.

"And my friend..freaked out at me. "Are you crazy? Your ex has already been with other girls. You know why? Because he UPGRADED from you. And yet you're still sitting here pining over him when there's someone else who could be so much better for you and yet you won't even give him a chance."

... just angry and frustrated.

PFFFFFTtttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111111111!

!!!!!!!!11!!!!!!11!1

OMG.

I'm all mixed up and don't know what to do. ; _ ;

Boxing Match

So mom and I had our first real go at it. She's under a lot of stress I guess. But she snapped at me, wouldn't talk to me, and I left.

Then, in the morning, she expects an apology from me. I go ape. I'm screaming, in hysterics. I can't breath. I'm crying, I'm speaking garbled english. I told her that I'm sorry that she snapped at me, I'm sorry that her life sucks, I'm sorry that she has a failing marriage, I'm sorry that her life is a shit hole, I'm sorry that I don't know how to make it better. After all that, I just left the house in tears. We're only on casual speaking terms now, only 'cos Jack was here. Thank god, I couldn't take another night of it.

WTFAWK

I guess that's how things work. When I'm horny, he's tired and goes home. When he's horny, I'm tired and I bite the bullet.

Rough day at school. I hate life. I wish this goddamn headache would just go away and leave me the fuck alone. I need more sleeping pills. Curse over sleeping on my alarm. Goddamnit.

Weird dreams. Just plain weird and stupid. What the hell is causing them?

He's the kind of boy you want so bad it makes you sorry...

Bad dreams. Well, not really bad. Just dreams I shouldn't be having.

Raw Poeticism

"...Let my live my life like a storm through paradise..."
~J. Koz

:D I didn't know he was so poetic.

T.V. Carpio

"..Oh yeah, I'll tell you something,
I think you'll understand.
When I'll say that something
I want to hold your hand.."

What happens to the things that were once sweet and pure?