Every tear I shed was in vain. It was all for nothing. Our whole relationship was a joke, a lie. How could we even call that a relationship? :sigh: Nobody plays the fool better than myself.

And he let me beat myself up over something stupid like kissing. If he could only see my tear stained face.

Black Hole Sun

:sigh: I hate parties. It's been decided. No more. They're pointless.

Horrible day at work. Covered in throw up. Oh boy. Blaaah. Goddamn.

Allergencias

Allergies suck, a lot. Nose is runny, gotta go to work. It's hot as balls. ZOMG, I'm going to die.

For some damned reason I keep looking at that christmas card. I'm the one that's being pathetic. It's been 6 months already. Jesus Christ, I'm the pathetic one. I've been crying my eyes out and vomitting for the past 3 hours or so now and I still feel miserable. Vomitting 'cos of food poisoning, and crying because I'm weak and can't get over this. I have everything, yet I have nothing. What's wrong with me.

Looking Back on You

06.13.07/11.11

Looking back at you right now. It makes me wish that I never said the things I said to you or promise any of those things that I couldn't make true. I'm sorry. And the only thing that can be said is that I miss you and I was wrong. I was wrong in thinking that you weren't worth the time or the effort. I was wrong in giving in and moving on. And now you're better off. I wish that you thought of me, but knowing what I did to you only makes me think more strongly that you don't. I'm being a pity whore right now. A drama queen, a total moronic bitch.

And the only thing I want to say is I miss you.