Allergencias

Allergies suck, a lot. Nose is runny, gotta go to work. It's hot as balls. ZOMG, I'm going to die.

For some damned reason I keep looking at that christmas card. I'm the one that's being pathetic. It's been 6 months already. Jesus Christ, I'm the pathetic one. I've been crying my eyes out and vomitting for the past 3 hours or so now and I still feel miserable. Vomitting 'cos of food poisoning, and crying because I'm weak and can't get over this. I have everything, yet I have nothing. What's wrong with me.

Looking Back on You

06.13.07/11.11

Looking back at you right now. It makes me wish that I never said the things I said to you or promise any of those things that I couldn't make true. I'm sorry. And the only thing that can be said is that I miss you and I was wrong. I was wrong in thinking that you weren't worth the time or the effort. I was wrong in giving in and moving on. And now you're better off. I wish that you thought of me, but knowing what I did to you only makes me think more strongly that you don't. I'm being a pity whore right now. A drama queen, a total moronic bitch.

And the only thing I want to say is I miss you.

Yeah. Not much else to Say.

So Jordan cracked his head open. There's an alligator in Hopkins Pond. I'm failing school (question mark?). I'm addicted to Wii boxing/bowling. I'm probably not getting into Penn. And my mom hates me.

Tripping over Laces

It feels like my feet are tied together, like I'm tripping over shoe laces. I can't stop falling. I can't stop failing.

Baah.

Racism

22.04/04.25.07

So it wasn't Keith that my dad hated. It's all men in general that I bring into this house. It wasn't just one specific person, although the earring, the long hair, and the clothing didn't help. I brought my friend Rawleigh over a few times now, and I added two and two together; my dad is a racist.

I want to kill him. He's so embarrassing. All of my friends are nice. They're funny, outgoing, great people. Why does he have to go out of his way to be rude in front of them, why can't he just go hide out in his hole like he usually does?

I'm angry and frustrated right now. And right now I don't give a fuck about everything that I have to accomplish tomorrow.

Fuck it.

Skip to my Lou

20.25/04.24.07

Skipped school today to hang out with my Peng'in. Took a two hour nap. Came home around 6 and had dinner. God I'm beat, and it's only 8.30... e_____e